Judgement is rapidly approaching. On the first of next month I will be homeless, or so it seems. I was told that if I cannot find a job by then I will be asked to leave. No big deal, right? Except for the part where I have been trying for more than a year without results. And the fact that all I can do is put myself out there and hope that they want me. Sure, it might have looked like I wasn't trying hard all of that time.... I didn't have any interviews... but what does that have to do with how many hundreds of applications I put out there? For every two that they saw me attempt and then not go through with due to lack of mobility, there were ten more that I did without them knowing a thing about it. So now it is a week till the deadline and I am going insane. I had a great interview.... but I haven't heard anything back from them and despite my frequent calls I have been unable to contact anyone. My friend interviewed after me and already received a notice that they weren't going to hire her. I have looked, but I haven't seen anything of that sort in my email and my phone has been kept close for more than a week hoping that they will call. I have continued to apply to new places since that interview, but what hope do I have that they will interview me and hire me before the day of reckoning? I feel like screaming, raging, or just plain weeping yet what good would any of that do me? I am lost despite my own best efforts and I have no idea what I can do to fight back. Im breaking up.... I have no clue what to do and no time to do it in. So if you don't hear from me again, that is why. |